Everything is going according to plan.
These were the words spoken to me recently. What is it about this phrase? it is used when circumstances appear NOT to be going according to plan…when plans are derailed, or when the “original” plans need to be adjusted. Or, we use this phrase when “others” doubt the effectiveness of the plan and we offer those words as encouragement.
So why is there tension inside me with these words? Last year, we had plans to watch Gabriel enjoy a year of school sports and the bone tumor growing in his shoulder kept him from fully participating the entire year. The plan for this year was to enjoy watching Matthias participate in school volleyball. His scaphoid break kept him from the court during most of the season. Lydia was off to study in England until April 2017, until those plans were derailed and all the international students were no longer able to study at the school. How is any of this according to plan?
There is one answer…and it is hard to accept.
For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.
The hope is not in the plans I have made, but in the unwavering promise that the Father knows, He sees, and He is at work. For I have put my hope in you, Jesus, that your word does not return to you empty. You promised life and life in abundance. You said you would give me everything I need for life and godliness. You said you would never leave me. You called me, adopted me into your family. You have me sealed with a promise and you keep your word.
I am still wrestling with disappointment, but I am getting closer. I am moving closer to a place of trust, that the Father knows, sees and is working on my behalf.
What if the plans changed because the lessons learned would run deeper, last longer and glorify God…if the road became a bit more rocky? What if the potholes we encountered along the way strengthened our trust muscles? What if our endurance through the uncertainty, the challenges, the disappointments showed us that God has to be our strength?
Gabe is healthy again…and even with the knowledge that his bone tumor may be returning, for now, he is not in any pain.
Matthias played in the final provincial tournament…and has made a positional change, one that has given him a new perspective…possibly, new opportunities and this is a direction, he may not have taken…if not for the injury.
Lydia has climbed her mountain. She did not let disappointment win. She was not overcome by worry. She persevered. Doors have opened for her to go to Ravenscrest in Colorado to complete her studies. What a gift!
Jesus came for this…to be present in our mess.
Trust the process.