Dying to Self?…or Rebellious?

I have been thinking about rebellion. What does it mean to be rebellious in spirit? What do I mean when I say my kids are rebelling? What is rebellion? The online FreeDictionary defines rebellion as : “An act or a show of defiance toward an authority or established convention.” Antonyms of rebellion include “submission” and “obedience.” Dr. Dale A. Robbins describes in his resources that “rebellion is the unwillingness to be ruled by any source other than self. It is an indiscriminate contempt toward all authority.”

Joyce Meyer talks of her own rebellious nature that had to be broken. She says, “rebellion, and the disobedience it causes, keeps us from having the power of God that’s available to us as Christians.” Rebellion is not just outward behavior but it’s an attitude problem and a heart issue. It resists authority, is likened to witchcraft in the Bible (see 1 Samuel 15:23), makes us unprofitable (see Hebrews 13:17), and brings judgment upon us (see Romans 13:1,2).

For rebellion is as the sin of divination, and presumption is as iniquity and idolatry. Because you have rejected the word of the Lord, he has also rejected you from being king.                               1 Samuel 15:23

Obey your leaders and submit to them, for they are keeping watch over your souls, as those who will have to give an account. Let them do this with joy and not with groaning, for that would be of no advantage to you.          Hebrews 13:17

Let every person be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those that exist have been instituted by God. Therefore whoever resists the authorities resists what God has appointed, and those who resist will incur judgment.      Romans 13:1,2

An evil man seeks only rebellion, and a cruel messenger will be sent against him.                                                                           Proverbs 17:11

God settles the solitary in a home; he leads out the prisoners to prosperity, but the rebellious dwell in a parched land.      Psalm 68:6

and that they should not be like their fathers, a stubborn and rebellious generation, a generation whose heart was not steadfast, whose spirit was not faithful to God.                                                              Psalm 78:8

Rebellion does not serve the heart of God. Rebellion serves self. Whom am I to serve? I am to serve the Lord and Him alone and die to myself. Heavy words if one contemplates the depth of what Jesus is asking. Am I willing…am I able to die to my “self?”

I am reading an account of the life of Rees Howells. I am stuck right on page 35. I’ve read further, yes, but I can not help but turn back to this paragraph:

“The meeting the with Holy Ghost was just as real to Rees Howells as his meeting with the Savior those years before. “I saw Him as a Person apart from flesh and blood, and He said to me, ‘As the Savior had a body, so I dwell in the cleansed temple of the believer. I am a Person. I am God, and I am come to ask you to give your body to Me that I may work through it. I need a body for My temple (1 Cor. 6:19), but it must belong to Me without reserve, for two persons with different wills can never live in the same body. Will you give me yours? (Rom. 12:1). But if I come in, I come as God, and you must go out (Col. 3:2, 3). I shall not mix Myself with your self.”

I was told that this book would “wreck” my life…wreck the paradigm I have created about the indwelling of the Holy Spirit and whom I serve. I am wrecked. I am wrecked right here on pg. 35. Bam!

This is submission. Page 35 is submission to God’s heart, to God’s plan, to God’s will. I am sitting today, soaking with worship music, writing and reflecting the question: Can I die to self?



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