Where have I been? It has been a very long time since I have posted. I have been in a place of hiding in His presence allowing myself the time to be with Jesus in a new way. I was given a word of encouragement almost two years ago: “See, I am doing a new thing. Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah 43:19.
Desert seasons can be bleak, parched and dreary. It was certainly that way for me, but God never desired to leave me in the desert. When I received this word, I could only see what was directly in front of me. Not until I began to lift my eyes from those present circumstances did my season begin to bear different fruit, fruit of life and hope building a new resilience to endure.
When I realized that my only hope in the desert was to reach out to the Father…that, in fact, there was no other way, but to trust Him, I had to ask myself what did I believe? In the past, I suppose, I believed that God was an all-consuming fire. I believe, I feared Him, but I did not really know Him. I did not know the intimacy of the Father. I did not know He was tender, loving, and compassionate but more importantly, that I could engage with Him…experience Him at a deeper, heart level.
My desert began to sprout with new fruit, new life as my experience of the Father became my highest priority. I hear His voice through words on a page, thoughts dropped in my mind, whispers from heaven in His creation, but my eyes needed to open, my heart needed to soften to His embrace. I needed to spend time waiting in His presence.
The doors of my heart opened through repentance and thankfulness. Repentance, for God’s kindness is intended to lead you to repentance (Romans 2:4), and thankfulness because I believe His word: “just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness” Colossians 2:5 NIV.
The word says, “continue,” meaning it takes effort…an exercise of our will to make time, to wait on the Lord. Waiting in the desert was not easy and the only way to bear fruit is to prune the vine. Pruning can be painful…parts of me had to die to bring life. New life. New day. New message.